I arrived early and checked-in. I thought I was in for a wait, but I was pleasantly surprised that they decided to move up my appointment and take care of me immediately. I was walked into a very pleasant private room, given instructions on where to place my clothing, how to wear the cute gown they placed in the room for me, and they even offered me tea while I waited.
I looked around and there were beautiful floral prints on the wall and just a very calming feel of the room. The furniture pieces in the room were something you would find in someone's living room.I could feel my heart racing in spite of the calmness of my setting, so I took my heart rate using my handy dandy iPhone (look away Android lovers), and found that it was elevated. Within a few minutes I was walked over to the diagnostic center a few doors down, and the sight of the mammogram machine sort of intimidated me....but then I saw it.
The cute little ladybug to reassure that all was going to be okay.
A little background on the ladybug....approximately 3 years ago I drove my best friend to the airport. He was on his way to Japan. This trip was like no other trip he had taken-he was on his way home to say goodbye. We were all at peace with it, because of how my friend, Dan had handled his pancreatic cancer diagnosis and his 3-6 months to live. He was an incredible person and his spirit and heart were so inspiring and calming. He was my best friend of 20+ years and it was the norm to have very mind provoking and philosophical conversations with him. On that particular drive I asked him to send me a sign if he could as he walked into heaven. He called me Ladybug due to my wearing red and black during our SDSU college years, and so he said, "I'll send you a sign Ladybug, so that you know I am safe, happy, and in heaven." I was certain I would see him again, but that conversation would be our last.
Two weeks after that conversation I was back at home cat-sitting for a girlfriend. Her two cats were silly playful characters and loved to play with ice cubes in their water dish. One morning I went to their dish to drop in a few ice cubes and I saw a ladybug swimming into their dish. What a funny sight-the cats were total indoor cats, and the windows had not been opened. I scooped the ladybug out of the dish and carefully walked it out to the balcony. There I let it go and as I watched it fly into the sky on it's way for an adventure the phone rang. It was Dan's sister, and she shared the news that Dan had just passed. I asked when---and she replied, "Just a few minutes ago", and I knew that it had happened just as I had released that ladybug off the balcony.
Getting back to that ladybug in the doctor's office-it was a a decorative item on the technician's desk area. A coincidence....possibly, but I know it was a wink from God or the Universe telling me I'm not alone and that everything is okay. From time to time I will see a ladybug when I'm stressing over something I shouldn't be stressing over and it just gives me a chuckle. Thank you, Dan for your clever winks in life.
Has the Universe/God winked at you lately? Sometimes we don't see it, but if we slow down for just a bit I'm sure you will see your "wink".
By the way-the mammogram was 100% normal, and my resting heart rate is back to normal.
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